Thank You so much cause I have been really needing someone to talk to besides my therapist bless her Heart lol

I enjoy trying New things and I have Alot to catch up on in two years whenever my Twins Graduation from High school I'm going to have my very on camper home on wheels and a good smallest truck to pull it an I want to spend the night in every state and capital an see all the wonder's and live like a Gypsies and Free Forever and I would love to have my Man fest and Wishes for a Large amount of cash to fall on top of me and my children and we wouldn't tell anyone an just be Gone and We don't ever want to come back to his home town Ever Again Cause We want an deserve so much better than is Here and I believe it's going to happen for US because I pray for it all 4 of my kids Pray for it and Spirit knows we all really need an deserve it and We will be grateful an Help others to an always remember an tell everyone about our miracle an blessings of Abundance and Prosperity from Spirit Source 🙏 for Never given up or into being put out for always being thankful for whatever We have an each other and believe it's going to get better and Brighter just keep going!!!

Hello My name is Terri Michelle Turnmire I go by Michelle or Sweet Shell lol I am New to all of this I'm 44 mother of 4 great Young Adults now and I was with the same man for 30yr he was my first everything he grew up in our family my lovely witchy aunt and his mother was best friends and hell on wheel but a blast to be around but I felt like he was my white night saved me from my wicked hateful hurtful Mother and I finally got to live My own life not someone else and I was in control and I done what I wanted to an I didn't cook an fix his plate or wash his clothes I taught him how to do it his self and he understood an didn't care at all but his mom ragged me about every chance she'd get but I didn't care about what anyone thought felt about me an our life and I done it my way and enjoyed it for many years until His family started selling drugs and they started doing own sluppy and they got out there and I seen what was happening so I stopped and they were mad and ganging up on me and before I knew it we was separated an I was having to stay with a uncle I didn't like an they were still riding the big black train an I was enemy number one and they all teamed up and jacked up an called my work so much and so often I got fired and I had done got my own place and I was moving forward by myself but it's all fell apart when I lost my 2yr job and nobody else in town would hire me because of all the Lie's gossip they spread an she had him divorce me and make me give everything she gave us when we got married pots pans dolls everything even both car's I bought an paid for but they were in his name cause I was to young so I lost everything an my Bio Dad And his wife came an got me an took me home with them and helped me get clean and healthy and back on track again and working an here he comes to talk about Court an he melts like a marshmallow and begged me to just give him another chance to show that he will choose me above all others even momma and I make him prove it for a Year and standing up for me to his Mother and her so mad she's throwing stuff at us lolol and it was me an him against the world and it was great for along time until Momma got back on stuff and she wasn't healthy at all an she gave up and she passed away and the day we burying her we found out that I was 2months pregnant with our first son because my period was late and we were so busy rebuilding our life home everything again I hadn't noticed an she was being mad and mean to everyone because I was back in the family and she's was jealous of Me and she done any an everything she could to start trouble or Drama and I didn't let it bother me at all I would still be nice and sweet and thoughtful of her but she done something to much and she threw herself into massive Heart attack and she was on life support and in a coma until she had no brain activity and the machine was breathing for her she was already gone and his older brother an sister by like 8 an 10 years older now made him the baby sign paperwork to cut everything Off on Her and I know he resents me because it was me being apart of his life again that they were not close anymore and why she was being Ugly and mean to everyone even at Christmas time and she did it on purpose I believe we'll everyone believed it because his sister was messed up after everything and popped off and said it an I didn't take it good but he's buried them All an I have been right by his side even when we wasn't together and I couldn't stand him I was there and I was Lovin 'Caring Loyal and I will always be a good Hearted Soul because all my life everyone has tried to put out my light an smile but I will never let them well as y'all can clearly see I haven't had anyone to talk to an get everything out of me and I hope I'm not to much for this group but I need to find My people who gets me and there for me like I will be for them and so here I am first time first group I've been watching studying and learning about tarot reading an all the other things you can learn to read and I am Happier and My True Honest Self and I want to learn how to grow bigger Brighter and happier and I need to learn All ways to protect myself and kids and Energy and space and how to block an cut off anything or anyone sending Bad to Us I know the basics salt sage cleaning home and self in baths and blessings jewelry and crystal and daily prayer and manifest what you want but I haven't really been able to buy everything I need for Alot of spells and enchantments this stuff is high dollar but I'm working on being able to work from home while waiting for my SSi and after I get my follow going I'll be able to finance my classes and retreats for learning everything I need to know so I am really excited to be able to find people like me I have always felt odd and alone and I am not a follower or fit in with the crowd at all I never have been an I don't ever want to so I am a Sagittarius and I have always loved an been drawn to magic , spiritual, different, and odd things that I am drawn to an I really Used to talk straight to Spirit before I became sexual active that was all I had an Spirit always talked back to me and let me know if something was going to happen before it did in my dreams or vision and I could ask a question an by morning I had my answers and I was always the one everyone came to poor out there soul to an ask for advice and I knew what to tell them but I never had anyone there for me and I always get stabbed in the back betrayed I have never had anyone in my life that hasn't done those things to me before the end an I really want to find people who are like me and loyal and honest and straight forward and I have almost given up on ever finding a family tribe where I belonged an don't have to keep my garud up waiting for that person to Stab me when I have my defense down there that is me and I love Purple Unicorn and rainbows and I enjoy planting things and mixing positions well perfumes Lolol I am painting by numbers right now lolol an

I'm just trying to find my spirit tribe and people who are like me and can help me learn how to Use my gifts for good an to help others and I have always had to be taken care of everyone and everything all on My Own and I have no one I can trust depend on or talk to that's not going to turn it against me as soon as I leave but I'm learning how to Use my gifts and aloneness to better myself and help me grow an depend only on myself and spirit but it's the first time in my 44yrs that I finally am Free of having to take on everything for everyone and just be used up an threw away when they are done with me and I am not going to let stuff like that happen to or around Me anymore and I am not begging for them to come to party's holidays gathering and I am not going out of my way to be a rug for them to step on an I really have enjoyed finding my true self an what I want to grow into an I want to learn about everything I possibly can an put it to helping others that is going through Hell like I have had to do but even whenever my life was it's darkest and I had no light at all I always found the silver lining and find something to Laugh an make others smile even when they were crying because I have always said that I was a Rainbow Bright Sheep in a Black depressing negative family friends and now who I thought was my soulmate but he chose to change for the Bad terrible thoughtless selfish Side and I am guilty of doing things I regret an taken Abuse just to keep the peace and happiness for my children and it's not the right way to show them how to deal with your problems and I am trying to correct that Now and learn the right healthy Way to deal with things instead of letting it build up and exploding over something small because you don't deal with it when it happens and the right Positive way but I will always be Old school 3 strikes and your out and I am not nice that fourth time I believe in Ass whooping and face an commutation with the problem and solve it lolol I really do want to learn tarot cards and it all really has always been in an Apart of my life I just was recurred and shamed by most people but I had a few like my Aunt Diane she was a True Practicing Witch and she didn't care what anyone thought of her and she was Out loud and proud of her gifts and herself and she was not taught the good an light magic first because she was Used for offering for A Dark and Black magic Covent cause she was young gifted and a virgin at 13 she was offered up and Abused sexually from then on an was Made to believe that it was normal and love an she really loved the Magic an power's she could get an Use on others and to get whatever she wants or whoever she wants but she was a kid and she was having fun and enjoying everything without knowing that everything has a price that has to be paid for now she's in Spiritual Debit and before to long Spirit sends his collectors and she trys to settle up and she loses everything an almost everyone important to her but she changed her life and she wants to right her Wrongs and Only do good an Help others and she does for along time and she stays on path even after losing her first grandchild at 3months old an she keeps her value and only does good an light with her gifts and she started teaching me but she got ill an started forgetting everything an who she was it was heart break to watch she went back to a little girl who loved coloring and wanted her Mother

No I honestly don't believe I can ever trust him again but I have just decided to live for me and mine it's been 30 long years and I have been completely on my own with my kids for 5years but 1year completely free from abusive man child who refused to grow up and get his life together for himself without someone else doing it for him but he wouldn't Lost everything then because I chose mine and my kid's peace didn't let him move in on us again he decided to steal another man's wife and life down to man's clothes and shoes and home everything an they sold everything and partying so hard My kids Dad is literally half of the Man he was a year ago sick looking an he has had nothing hardly to do with his kids 4of them except when he want to verbally down and degrade them and there life when he's literally turned his back on All of them for another man's wife and family an will not help his own children want pick them up from school if sick and he has been sick thinking make everyone else think and feel sorry for him might have prostate cancer and STD that never goes away to lolol but I have been with him since I was 16years old and I had a rough home life growing up I always had to take care of everyone and they hardly showed affection and love an I never done anything right I was always like My sorry Daddy who I never knew until I was 16 but I had a loving caring step Dad who respected my up and out harsh honest and opinions and I was called a Smart ass by my mother But she was still is super jealous and envious of me and how I've always spoken up and out for whatever I believe was right or for someone who would just sit there and take it over I couldn't stand it because it's wrong and at 11yr old I stomped down the stairs in our house while they were fussing and fighting Cussing yelling and I was very loud and clear They were going to stop right now and I'm sick of it and They need to grow up and talk calmly about things to each other but this upsetting everyone in the house all the time was going to stop right now and I'm going to be this way every single time and My Mother's mouth hang open in Ow because My Dad listened to me and respected my wishes from now on they went in there bedroom and didn't get loud she's always loud but I have always told it the way I see it My mom's mother loved me and it made my mother that much meaner but my sister did no wrong and is special talk to Dead an she doesn't use it to help anyone an she's fake they both wear masks for everything she married into Money and she has always had everything handed to her and I started it because I was out working no kids and I want to make sure her and my brother has seizures has everything I didn't an they wouldn't have had I spoiled them and both parents went off party rails on life so I had to take care of everyone and I loved doing it an never wanted anything in return except love family and Loyalty Honestly But not My family as soon as they thought you were gone here it comes like a dog stabbing you and they always do for each other but never include me or My kids and they named my mom mean Mee Maw and My Bio Dad and his wife and family are better grandparents to My kids than My family and all kid's Dad's family has passed away and that's all my kids have is My missed Up peeps and my Dad an Nana's having to raise grand children from their kids and just stop calling coming by or to invite an we all tried to visit them but they live in a horror show of piled up trash Dirty everything an roaches on everything and I can't do anything crawling on around me and I have helped my sister clean up an spray Many times but they don't keep it up and I don't have the time to do it an my mom got really bad sick and down this winter and she was in the hospital more than home so I offer to come take care of her and help her get better back on her feet and I do an I clean cook bath dress shop bills Dr visit and still take care of kid's but they are big helpers to well I really try to enjoy it and make it a happy healthy time and she is sweet grateful until she is good enough to start doing things that's not good an healthy and after 6mth and all the paperwork done to get my In home Care Giver check started all of a sudden My sister is going to be taken her to all Dr appt and I knew exactly what they were doing but I let go but I don't go but when I have to go to clean bath run Arron's and she's getting very verbally Nasty but I'm taking it she's sick and going through Hell year from kid's Dad he drove myself and 2kud to mental hospital and really the other 2 needed to go to but we all are in family therapy and individual therapy too and that FBoy needs it but he's finding out that she's not even half of what he thought she had him believe an she's not bathing an stinky trashy and she has Twins 20yr girls wit door step baby's who in diapers and a 17yr son who does not go to school an none of them have ever worked an don't plan on it and living with them in a falling apart barely 3 bedroom one is just Attic space and they both work together same shift and department that how they met but they are always arguing about something all the time and they're just alike controlling manipulating deceiving stabbing each other in the back and never tells the truth and they have Played the victims of the story she told everyone that her husband beat her all the time and DM was just a friend from work who is helping her get away from him and he told that I got violent and beat his Drunk lien disloyal not getting his kids food Ass in front of his fake Ass work friends who she's probably fucking to Yes I Did it and Enjoyed the Hell out of doing it to because his sorry not take care of his children Needs first before going to get shit faced and don't care if kids have food tP just basic weekly needs lied to them told them he on way hour's and hour's ago and then no answer so I know where he's at and I show up nobody knows I'm anywhere around until I Pop out of the Dark with my whip it metal stick an Start beating Asses phones wrestling toys and his so called friends run away fast and fall down outside they're so drunk and he can't hardly hold his head up so I hold it up with his hair and tell him how sorry low life he was for treating innocent children like this an I just got One home from mental hospital and had my baby girl gone and him pulling this Bull shit yes I beat his Ass and took his debit card to an he had a black eye and tried Lien to everyone saying dog pushed him down but his so called friends told everyone what really happened to him and they were scared and ran away and hid an hope they never piss me off so I became the abuser and he always call's law in me anymore pussy and I have to go to jail but his Ass was on probation and couldn't call them and hide behind them and Warrants so I did take advantage of that an I know my Rights now but I still don't like the police at all an neither do my kids but he's going to get his it's already started and text me I Miss you but won't come see kids for Easter for a few minutes cause they can't take much of him but nope he doesn't go to far from Her right now cause she's getting 10,000 income tax for all of them kids but they go through money like it's nothing 1500 a week and more everywhere and he only give his 16yr Twins 140 week and that's it nothing else an our children have never been formally induced to his New fiancee and her Kids and grandkids or invited to do anything at all with them and he wouldn't even come by for a few minutes on birthday's and party's or any holiday in a year now Easter to he was going to black mail Our daughter into going up to the house for a few minutes and he would buy them pizza and she really didn't want to but she's a Daddy's girl and she trys anything to get him to have something to do with her and My Logan tells his dad I don't feel like meeting your new family today and I'm not going but I find out that she's being bullied into going and it's already been a year and the only reason he's doing it is because I called him out on it because I tried to talk to him about how to ease kids and her an kids together without causing they stress and hatefulness but nope he make plans promises and never follows through an he's literally made us loose our family Van and he was given a car and he made Us walk or Transit everywhere even work but he was letting her drive his car around and she had her own car but not his wife and kids they were going out to Fair Aquarium and eating out but his kids friends and family paid an took them to the Fair where they saw them both together and they didn't see the kids but he lied right to Their faces and someone took a picture of them from the back and it was them but he still Denys it and then they took a week vacation off work and he tells everyone that he is taking the first day off to take his sick Twins to the Dr office and he was ask to because they were very sick fever vomiting everything but he doesn't show up until it's 30min till closing and they can't see them so take them by the Dollar store and they buy with money I gave them food drinks and what meds they can find to get us through the night an kid's Pay for everything he doesn't offer anything at all an I was in the bathroom and they brought everything in an his cocky Ass thought he'd just beebop on into our house like he's welcome and I came around the corner and told him that he better not Step one foot inside My home cause he's fair game if he does an he's Scared and Needs to be Cause I am Grown an accepted we ant and I don't really want to be with him anymore I don't like him or his friends anymore an I don't have to be around them but if they disrespect my boundaries they are fair game an I am not Heald accountable for my actions well my demons dark revenge on their Asses cause you was warned but I'm just trying to get along with him and get him to treat kids right an I know he's not going to until it's way to late but I have really tried to help him and get along with him but he's not going to be a Adult about anything until he is made to by the divine and I hope he doesn't Die before he gets a chance to with kids but he's not looking good at all an he looks position By a puppet demon and he is totally Opposite of the person he used to be an everyone sees it too an he's not friendly at work and he is always stressed out and hateful talking about everything an everyone too and he is always drinking doing drugs trying to make everything everyone else fault an everyone sees them for the Fake liars they really are an they work with garbage and people still smell Her stink and he is embarrassed of her because she has no common sense or class or friendly behavior toward anyone she's just quiet and out of place and never looks happy even when he purposes to her she kissing him in his lap but not smiling showing off her ring nothing an is bitching about it to friends at work too lolol never happy never enou gh she's literally sucking him Dry mindless soulless but he likes it and keeps taking it an I am done with them Both